http://k0neko.blog126.fc2.com/ hijoushiki na koneko~ (^-^*)/ｺﾝﾁｬ! Homosexuality and beastiality in one~ :3 A day in the life of... ja http://k0neko.blog126.fc2.com/blog-entry-32.html Why do I like to date older people?.im not sure myself. is it because I like mature people? well maybe that too even though im not that mature myself. Or maybe because i think that they're not indecisive..but no they are too even adults are like kids. Other reason might be because i idolized my papa for so long that im trying to find someone like him. Its possible.Or its not just the age, maybe it Why do I like to date older people?.

im not sure myself.

is it because I like mature people? well maybe that too even though im not that mature myself.
Or maybe because i think that they're not indecisive..but no they are too even adults are like kids. Other reason might be because i idolized my papa for so long that im trying to find someone like him. Its possible.

Or its not just the age, maybe its just because of the person. Someone who makes me feel secure, who is reasonable and not swayed by emotion alone. Probably.
Someone who realize and accepts the things that i lack and makes me fix those things without shoving it at my face.

I have little understanding of emotions, so instead of being sympathizing with that person id rather ask and make sense of why that person is how they're feeling at the moment and break it all up and see if its worth to actually exert energy on feeling for that person.

These kind of times when my brain is just overloaded with stuff that i cant even sort out what its all about, i wish Hugo is still around.

Hugo is this person that i can just sit with and talk to for hours about everything and anything. He doesn't judge but he does have opinion in most things. He was the first person who told me that, my smile was stupid but he doesn't mind, in German. Lol. Weird yes. Quickly saying that it was not flirting but merely saying what is in his mind. I found that amusing.

thinking of the past eh..?

There was a point that he had in a way confessed to me and at that time we felt like we were in love with each other. Crazy. Maybe. But he believes in having a soul mate, and that he had found one already. Lol. He already have a partner which is his soul mate too. That time we both question ourselves. Why we're attracted to each other, why he seek me when his soul mate is right by his side, why even then I cant forget the past and still want to stay besides him. Perhaps we're sick. lol.

Maybe it was the moment. Or my mind is still of a kid wanting to hold onto any warmth my hands can reach. But then again at that time i was a kid. Curious and Curious. In the end we left it as just a feeling between close brothers. Love that was there but wont happen eh?


They moved back to Germany though. Only gotten some emails here and there. Seems like they've been doing well. I wish them good luck.

Ive been thinking of the past a lot these days. Feels like im going to die soon at times like this, thinking of the good times then comes the bad ones. Nah, I wont die until I made even a one shot manga. And of course finishing my games collection which might..well take forever. Lol.


Forever is a long time right?....

]]> FF obsessions! 2009-10-01T07:20:23+09:00 Koneko-shi FC2-BLOG http://k0neko.blog126.fc2.com/blog-entry-31.html so basically my blog is slowly failing a LOT XD!!!! :s ugh not my fault ive been so busy helping out at my aunt's shop. :l carrying shit. XDand and ive been doodling some~ www.oyukilo.sheezyart.com

and and ive been doodling some~ www.oyukilo.sheezyart.com <---my art is in there

hmm what else oh yeah IMVU kept me busy too developing some stuff here and there which i paused too XD cause im rly busy X_x;

and another reason is ive been playing with Ono a lot now.

Playing Poison pink some and and Soul Cradle: world eaters <3 so much fucking oh so goooooooood im so addicted to it now!!!!!!

''motherf!!-- goddammit!'' XD



so i think this blog for a year fails XD as of now but im going to start again XD on day 1 ugh bleh when i have time o3o ]]> oh teh days~ 2009-09-01T12:14:11+09:00 Koneko-shi FC2-BLOG http://k0neko.blog126.fc2.com/blog-entry-30.html ok so its my bday. 08-13-09! :3what did i do? oh nothing special, i always spend my bday with my dad. Not in a creepy way lol since he is not alive nemore.He is cremated yes his ashes is at the room besides mine which used to be his room. In a few years ill be scattering those ashes. Even if we have him on the house he have a place in the cemetry, or any place i can be alone.He was a great dad.:/ ok so its my bday. 08-13-09! :3

what did i do? oh nothing special, i always spend my bday with my dad. Not in a creepy way lol since he is not alive nemore.


He is cremated yes his ashes is at the room besides mine which used to be his room. In a few years ill be scattering those ashes. Even if we have him on the house he have a place in the cemetry, or any place i can be alone.


He was a great dad.

:/

Still cant believe that he is gone, thats a realization that i have to think of whenever i go back in japan.

I always celebrate my bday with my dad, and well now with Zak too. My first year bday with you, damn ass. He is my best friend, known him for so long, he calls himself zak/zack, id tell you his real name but he'll get mad at me lol.

He got into an accident a few days before he was going to come visit.
He was my very first friend up till now he still is. If anyone of you have seen Elephant, the small cute puppy stuffed toy, that was from him. Ive had it for around 10 years now. he is someone i love dearly, but i still hate you, you damn ass.


my mum called me yesterday too, saying happy bday to me, and this morning again.

well nothing special happened much, tae gave me some games, and let me whine on him and kick his couch just cuz i can. And Sougi..>.> gave me his griever necklace..damn cheapo. Yay ff8 fans?!.

so yeah thats basically it.


.-. damn uncle wont give me my moolah.



YAY for reachin 100 views! ]]> oh teh days~ 2009-08-14T13:41:18+09:00 Koneko-shi FC2-BLOG http://k0neko.blog126.fc2.com/blog-entry-29.html ok so here is another my way of eating boiled eggs.->eating the top half without the yoil then eat the rest.*damn pointy tip*I dont eat, raspberry, blueberry, blackberry, unless its in ice cream/drink/candy.I dont eat eggplants, unless its served to me.cucumber/green squash/dunno what else people calls it. I eat it fried with flour and eggs.tuna + egg = yumI DO NOT EAT HOT FOOD. i always wait fo ok so here is another <_< piled up

days...just cause..I cant rmr most

of what happened those days...

blablablabla


IMvu is making me busy D:!!!

o3o ive been making stickers and

and and..i MADE MY FIRST SHIRTS

!!!

here are the shirts D: not too bad is it?!!!!




im still learning so sorry my

shirt stll looks barf worthy X<


ive been cranky past few weeks

blah...


ok so i rmr talkign to someone

about food, which made me realize

that im so damn picky.


yes. so DAMN picky.

heres some food thingies about me:

I dont eat, Chips, pizza, i dont

eat much meat ( i HATE cows) jsut

some. No Turket, ducks (unless in

soup)

Only breasts part of teh chicken.

i am allergic to cherries. ( but i

can tie the stem in a knot) MAGIC

WOOSH

I only eat certain types of fish,

unless its served to me.

crabs > lobster

ooh ever had the smooth shell

crabs raw with some sweet spice

sauce? omg its heaven/

octopus = fried, i can also eat a

live one but it was cut into

pieces, im not sure if i can

swallow a whole small one.

Squid = grilled.

I dont eat sunny side up eggs

(unless i got no choice), i like

scrambled w/ milk and i HAVE to

eat it with rice/bread/or anything

with grain on it.

i like eating boiled eggs. ( i

make them purrfectly) XD!
--> my way of eating boiled eggs.
->eating the top half without the

yoil then eat the rest.
*damn pointy tip*


I dont eat, raspberry, blueberry,

blackberry, unless its in ice

cream/drink/candy.

I dont eat eggplants, unless its

served to me.

cucumber/green squash/dunno what

else people calls it. I eat it

fried with flour and eggs.

tuna + egg = yum

I DO NOT EAT HOT FOOD. i always

wait for it to cool down before i

do.

No @ lemon or lime, unless its

mixed with something.

I dont drink coke much, if i do i

mix diff ones.

APPLE JUICE <3333

I dont eat fries or burgers or

tacos unless i HAVE to.

<3 sweet potato but i wan someone

to blow it(if its hot) and hold it

for me.

mine ice cream <3

i dont drink hot tea, specially

when my granmu makes it (her tea

kills). I mostly drink unsweetened

tea in a can or with any fruit

flavored mixed with it.

I cant eat fish with the head

still on it, I do eat the tail

tho.(my uncle's hobby is to chase

me around with that fish head)

i cant eat if my back is bent too

much.

i am ambidextrous on chopsticks

but i cant hold a knife with my

right hand.


SHRIMPS

PWNZ

YOU

ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >3

]]> oh teh days~ 2009-08-14T13:40:36+09:00 Koneko-shi FC2-BLOG http://k0neko.blog126.fc2.com/blog-entry-28.html i just cant remember what happened those days so ill just combine some stuff i do remember from those days. >_>' im trying im trying...gawd..this whole year blog isnt going so well >these days ive been busy poking around imvu, well im always on imvu right now lol which is weird but yeah. and ive been joining in doc (daily outfit challenge) lol which isnt so bad its kinda fun even tho its hard to w i just cant remember what happened

those days so ill just combine

some stuff i do remember from

those days. >_>' im trying im

trying...gawd..this whole year

blog isnt going so well >

these days ive been busy poking

around imvu, well im always on

imvu right now lol which is weird

but yeah. and ive been joining in

doc (daily outfit challenge) lol

which isnt so bad its kinda fun

even tho its hard to win even once

D
my very first one got 23rd, and

the theme was 'favorite color' i

think. and i dressed up as a

booger person :D!


second one is lol ended up on 3rd

page 113rd the theme was ''devil

in the blue dress'' >_> fcking

sucks

third one is ''they color yellow''

which i placed 2nd <333 and i was

really happy about that even tho i

fcking hate yellow >[

fourth one is...lets not talk

about it >_>. . *crickets*


]]> oh teh days~ 2009-08-14T13:37:59+09:00 Koneko-shi FC2-BLOG